Written Word in Jesus Name
STERKFONTEIN – A MOURN FOR MY LIFE!!!!
I can’t eat or sleep or drink – it burns me to even wink!!
Persecution has made me sink!!! I feel so trashed it’s like I stink!!
Head burning with fear – eyes puffed with tears – I can’t even blink!
So I come here to spit fire, though eyes are pink – The Sword’s my ink!
Here it is I thought my life would start to be mundane
A whole mental institution – they want to take my brain!!
Put it in a blender – a whole genius – they want to rape me with pain
Sterkfontein for those who don’t know it – is a mental asylum – a brain drain!!
All I did was preach the gospel for two years straight – I even lost weight!!
Completely innocent – did nothing wrong except to speak against hate
My hands are pure – a dove I’m sure would with my case downright relate
I fly with peace – yet all these beasts – they want to rape my entire case!!
She managed to convince a strange doctor to get a letter of recommendation
To place me in a mental asylum without any prior investigation
I tried to cry to him – to warn him about their two year long planned abomination
But he ignored my fear, instead the fact of my pain – brought him no desire for introspection
Without ANY questioning – or even examining – he said he thinks I belong there
Sterkfontein – based on the words of a woman whose lies are – stark, bold and bare
Whatever happened to doctor patient confidentiality?? I guess a Christian’s spared!!
Amazing how spiritual war kills professionalism – the silly doctor saw no issues there!!
Well anyway – been crying all night – cant sleep my pain is a blast so vast!
A cave in my heart – so disrespected by hearts made of stone and glass!
Able to laugh and talk – while I mourn in the bedroom – unable to hide my gasp
A gasp for air as I cry bitter tears over the fact that I’m innocent – yet coming last!!
Oh Jesus I cried to You – I begged you LORD to make me feel even a little better
To show me a sign that I’ll be alright – so shattered and broken! Completely withered
Unable to see any hope to be free – no job, no help, no fellow heir of Zion hither
I’m feeling so barren – just heavily laden – An immovable pain like a wooden splinter
Dear LORD I don’t get it – will you let these people check me into a MENTAL ASYLUM!????
HOW IN THE WORLD DID THEY GET TO THAT CONCLUSION?? Father – A mental asylum??
Completely sane – even that doctor said that I have the APPEARANCE of a hum
A hum I am quiet – I seem like I’m well – but only on speculation my mother’s won!!!
Jesus I beg you – I have nowhere to go – help me!! My pain is deep and publicly hung!!
No one cares that I’m hurting – they laugh while I cry – no feelings spun
It’s like I don’t exist – they moveless and resist even reacting to my crying gun
How can I cry like a grown man and have people nearby carry on and be mum??
I can’t believe that this is my family – just two years back I was so respected
Took care of everyone – always generous – reliable, handy and mighty gifted
Now after they tore my life from my seams – they act like I have never collected!!
A single pay check in my life – like I’ve never worked and been remunerated!!
A tutor, a helper – I have been all of that – yet when I cry they are cold
Not only that – dear LORD this is bold – they look at me like bread that has mould
No reaction to my pain – only cold as the rain – to the devil they have my life sold!!
But how you gon let these people destroy my life when your gospel is all I’ve told??
I preached without fear – I held You so near – trusting that You’ll always protect me
You said that You’ll never let me be put to shame – Father well look they’ve ensnared me!!
Sterkfontein LORD – can’t say that enough – how did that foolish doctor get there?
Didn’t ask me a single question – only took her false version – now a casket is my stare?
If they take me there LORD I will never rise again – it will ever be my mark!!
What is the point of all the evidence I’ve gathered – when crime is winning – it’s so stark??
Is there NO ONE AT ALL that You’ve set to stand tall with me against these seedy sharks??
Her joy is disgusting – in this she is gloating – my mother is happy despite being DARK!!
Oh Father she told me to sell my van so I can pay to be institutionalised!!
The audacity to even make that suggestion – such things she hasn’t realised
I’ve lost my whole life – and among the ONLY things I own with it she wants me to ruin my mind!!!
To sell my van Father!! She said I must sell my van – just so I can be VANDALISED!!
I know this world is dark – but Father I’m saved – there’s got be more saints that hide
Have you not hidden one in these hospitals – these prisons – one who’ll hear my side???
Where are your children?-I know they’re not many – some who’ll finally hear my cries????
Tell me You’re with me-show me You love me-theres gotto be a Christian within these miles!!
Her voice is heavy – it always overwhelms me – for years – all my life – LORD I have struggled!
Now it’s reached a climax Father – with labelled SCHIZOPHRENIA they want me smuggled!
My faculties are in order – I have rights dear Father – my religion is however muzzled
DESPITE living in a democracy – the Constitution is heresy – a seedy doctor the woman hustled!!
They’ve broken the law – but no one cares at all – safety in numbers is all they say
Held in duress by a lack of independence – walking on my head with arrogant sways
A gun to my head they hold and with a threat – that I won’t have a place to lay my head
So with that machete – they force me to a hospital – with crazy pills they want me fed!!
Jesus stand in the gap – please show them I am yours – don’t let these animals win!!
How can this be me – this life of disease – By grace I’m covered in you I’m in
Not a single head on my hair will perish You promised it – but despite that they peel my skin!
For your own sake Father – please raise me out this gutter – kill this inhumane sin!!!!!
They want me to die – suicide they want high!! Their own child they want her dead!!
Stayed alive for two years – long-suffering I’m not dead – but their weight on me is lead!!
The pain is unbearable LORD especially among them – alone I could avoid their dread
But now I’m among them and I feel like a leper – desperate to save my dying head!!
A shallow grave they have dug for me Father – theres no place to go for me anymore
With no hope and my confidence hovering below zero – I feel like I’m their whore!
My glory is gone – my splendour is dim – yet I’m chaste and am ever a heaven’s shore
I beg you oh Father – show them you’re my lover – show them I’m a daughter you adore!!!
Amen and Amen
Love Cranberry Kay